You think you know...but you have no idea

I am a Mac!

2009-05-09T12:31:17Z

I finally have a computer again so I can update my blog Woo!

Finding Motivation

2008-12-05T03:30:17Z

I've been feeling very unmotivated lately so I have "The Devil Wears Prada" in the background. I watch it every couple of months to remind me that clothes/makeup/hair matters and work should be my life. Obviously, I only watch the first part and not the boring self actualization section of the movie.

Anyways, now that I am not feeling emo any more I am going to write about why I felt sad on Sunday. I had told myself that I would try to make new friends so I invited my roommates fuck buddy out to girl's night with me. She seemed like a good candidate at the time... eager to make new friends, nice, pretty, and she is going to beauty school so I had a wild fantasy that she would practice all of her techniques on me and I would end up with glowing skin.

Boy was I wrong. The girl was W-E-I-R-D..now she keeps text messaging me with random ass TMI thoughts about her life. no wonder my roommate won't commit to her.

one day i hope to meet a nice normal new friend. in the meantime i am going to work on my other goals for myself which are:

- stretching every day (baby steps!)
- getting to work on time
- bringing my lunch to work

you would think it would be easy but its not. you can track my progress on my public blog.

I'm Emo

2008-11-30T17:56:19Z

Even though I spent the entire weekend with my wonderful friends, drinking wonderful cocktails, and stuffing myself with delicious food now that I have a moment to myself I am turning into a self-loathing emo kid. This usually happens every Sunday when everybody I care about decides to watch the Redskins game instead of hang out with me. So, basically I blame football for my temporary depression.

I just feel very stuck in my not a girl not yet a woman phase. I'm very much in love with my boyfriend but....we are not ready to get married yet. I love my friends...but we are all doing our own thing so we don't get to see each other that much. I love my family but...if I see them for long periods at a time they drive me crazy.

Anyways I have a real reason for writing this entry but I don't feel comfortable writing about it yet so I guess I will just leave it at that. I am going to make this blog my "emo" blog so I can complain about all the stuff that bothers me. It is SO hard to put up the persona of a happy, sweet girl all the time.

Btw, I am no longer self loathing. I told you it was temporary.

I am Blair Waldorf

2008-11-30T17:36:15Z

I am uppity, bitchy and judging. I don't know if that is something I like about myself or something I don't like about myself.

Desperately seeking Serena...

Hello Goodbye Hello Goodbye

2008-11-22T02:00:24Z

Ok I am supposed to go out to two parties in the district tonight but I am lazy and I will probably end up snuggling underneath my blankets watching "Desperate Housewives of Atlanta" (the best show ever...

I am reading old journal entries and found this one dated
Mon, Sep. 27th, 2004, 10:04 pm

My dry, hacking cough is becoming famous! Today I was walking and I coughed and the guy in front of me stopped and was said, "Hey! Aren't you in my comm class? I recognize your cough!" I am sorry to report that my cough is slowly going away...so be sure to check it out while it is still around.

This random guy in front of me turns out to be my very lovable, huggable boyfriend! You never know who you are going to fall in love with hahaha...

Whatever Happened to Michael?

2008-11-22T01:22:34Z

I was 18. He was 21. He looked like Enrique Iglesias. He was the cutest boy I have ever met and he liked ME! Chubby, socially awkward me! He was wordly. He drank wine. He wore women's jeans because it fit him better. He knew how to drive to Georgetown. He quoted Family Guy and The Simpsons like it was his job. He was a deejay and together we were going to make a soundtrack of our life.

I am 24. I am old. I'm not chubby. Nor was I ever chubby. I'm still socially awkward but I hide it by smiling a lot. And he is old. and fat. And he doesn't deejay anymore. I have found the love of my life. He has found the love of his life...a fat vegan with a police record.

His parents miss me.

As Nelson Muntz would say... "Ha Ha!"

PS: I am over him just not over the fact that I have been replaced by a fat vegan with a police record. who has a drinking problem. and had a drug problem. i would have been a good mother to his son.

My Love

2008-11-20T03:45:54Z

I don't think I give my boyfriend enough credit but he really is the most wonderful person I have ever met. Here are some reasons why:
- I really wanted to go to the Spice Girls concert but didn't have anybody to go with. He bought tickets for me to go and even wore the pink "Spice Boy" shirt I made him.
- He is nice to my family and friends even when they are annoying.
- He calls me every month on the 16th to wish me a happy anniversary.
- After a long day of work he will commute from DC to Springfield then to my house just to spend some time with me. He will wake up at five so he can do it all over again.
- He sends flowers to my office so I can make all the other girls jealous.
- He doesn't mind when I ogle babies at church/restaurants/shops/elevators/work/etc. or talk about my future children.
- When I am really upset about something he genuinely tries to change (even if it doesn't always work)
- He went to a gay bar with me on Election Night because he knew I wanted to hang out with some of my friends
- He supports me in every single decision I make
- He doesn't care that I sleep with a Zac Efron pillow at night

Update (aka: I'm bored)

2008-11-20T03:14:02Z

Hello Live Journal World! It has been almost two years since I have last updated. In this time frame the following has happened:

- I have moved out of my parent's house and have furnished an entire townhouse all by myself!
- Rob and I celebrated our two year and six month anniversary earlier this week. It has not been easy. There has been a lot of fighting (all on my part cus I'm a crazy girl) but I truly believe that I have found someone that I can spend my life with.
- I have been working at an advertising company for the past year. I recently received my very first raise and I am the lead account executive on a large annual music festival.

So overall, I win!

I might start writing in this journal again since I don't think anybody checks it. Holler if you do! There is a lot of day to day drama that I haven't talked about but that would take forever and a day to write about...

hold up !wait a minute!

2007-03-06T16:18:57Z

diagnosis.delicious.blogspot.com

It's my new journal.

UGLY KIMBERLY

2007-02-10T15:07:21Z

I am addicted to the television show Ugly Betty (ABC/Thursdays/8PM). It has all the elements of a fun show - - beauty, fashion, and drama. I am most drawn to it because I feel a deep connection with the main character Betty Suarez.

I am the child of immigrant parents. I eat carbs and am a midget compared to tall and thin counterparts. I have unruly brows. I am often overlooked by my prettier and more social sister. I work harder than most to take care of my family. I worry a lot. I was not raised to be an independant, strong businesswoman but a caring, connected person. I am unsure of myself but I keep on going. Shoot, I even have a poncho only mine is from Guatamala not Guadalajara.

Critics have been touting Ugly Betty as a great role model for young Latinas. I feel Betty is a great role model for anybody. She gives me hope.

"It's a hormone patch so my mustache doesn't grow back in" - Alexis (a transgender character on the show)
"Oh really! Where do you get that? Because I have to bleach mine all the time" - Betty

How you can tell you live in the middle of nowhere....

2006-10-01T18:16:40Z

1. You are walking your dog and an emu runs beside you

See here: http://www.nbc4.com/news/9902050/detail.html

2. You are driving out to the bars and a goat runs in front of your car

3. You spend your first month anniversary whacking a snake (only pretending carey..only pretending!)

4. you go canoeing in your backyard when there is heavy rainfall...and get caught in a strong current and have to be saved.

still on my brain

2006-08-26T20:35:20Z

justin timberlake + timbaland = THEHOTNESS.

we were so close up that i didn't even need to wear heels to see over peoples heads (a feat, since i am barely 5'2")!

excuse me while i giggle like a school girl.teeheeheeheee.

The First Lady of FUN!

2006-08-24T20:06:01Z

Heaven is a freshly baked chocolate croissant and watching the Golden Girls in your cubicle away from prying eyes!

- Kimberly

PS: I'm seeing JT tommorow at the 9:30 Club, the home of my much cooler internship.

creampuffs @ 2006-08-19T10:38:00

2006-08-19T14:45:41Z

If you haven't noticed, I had given up on my search on trying to find a new friend everyday. I was an optimistic (almost) graduate a couple of months ago and now I'm.... CYNICAL! FLAKY! TIRED!
I am leaving my internship Georgetown next week. I am happy for it. I have gotten some great experience, but Jian is right the people here are stuffy and self concerned. Except for the homeless people - - but they usually are talking to their imaginary friends and drinking starbucks coffee. Which also reminds me, I have seen 3 homeless people sporting new balances and one man rocking a pair of nikes. What's up with that? I am seriously wearing my flip flops that I got ON SALE at PAYLESS that I had to pay for with a CREDIT CARD.
Next stop. Dupont Circle. I think I will like it a lot. It is in close proximity to Moby Dick's House of Kabob and the senior account executive reminds me a little bit of RAchael Ray..and me mixed together! I like that combo!
Yesterday I fell asleep at the wheel for .3 seconds and ran the front of my rims into a big old rock. I am okay but my car needs to be fixed. It was very scary! I need to sleep more often, I can't believe the rest of my life is going to be like this.

Summer Goals

2006-06-22T20:31:43Z

Hi. Intern Kimberly here, sitting at her desk in Georgetown. My new summer goal is to talk to a new person everyday. I will write about it in here. Hopefully I will meet some interesting people!

K.Van Vs. F.O.I.L.

2006-05-29T16:38:07Z

K.Van Vs. F.O.I.L.

As you can see in the picture. I GRADUATED! Only..not. I'm a total fraud. I still have to take a freshman level math course to get my diploma. So, it has come to this. Math is still haunting me. I have registered for this course three times over my four years at Mason and have dropped it every time in favor of things such as Thursday Happy Hour at Chili's (a celebration of food). I have considered ways to get away this course some ideas being: hiring a stereotypical Asian girl (who is good at math) to take my place during summer school or simply just not getting my diploma. I have the pictures that say I graduated! Who needs a stinkin' diploma?!

PS: Kimberly "Who needs class when you have $2 draft beers" Van got a 3.8 this semester. HOTNESS.

Final Four Weekend

2006-04-04T03:20:20Z

This weekend was nothing short of incredible. Although I ran into many technical diffuculties (selling my championship game ticket for ten dollars when finding a buyer for 100 ten seconds later, dropping my milkshake on the ground, dragging my friend's to a west virginia big boy for a bob's big boy piggy bank and not finding it, getting in a fight with a best friend, losing one of my sorority sisters and travelling back with only the clothes on my back)...I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET THIS TRIP.

This is what college is for!

PS: I finally went to White Castle and it is DISGUSTING. (And I am not a discriminating eater)

we're kind of a big deal

2006-03-27T17:59:42Z

- I am out of green and gold clothing.
- My liver hates Mason basketball.

But who the fuck cares cus we are going to the FINAL 4!!!!!!!! In other news, everything in my life is a mess.

diagnosis delicious

2006-03-20T19:45:56Z

wow it feels so good to laugh out loud without feeling a searing pain in your heart. thank goodness for chemotherapy!

and i can't help but mention the gmu/unc game yesterday. hotness. total hotness. kat and i were dying.dying.dying yesterday when mason won. GO PATRIOTS!

riot vannnnn

2006-03-15T16:07:31Z

Most random pictures i've seen of myself in a while...

Welcome to Kimberly's Hair Journal

2006-03-07T06:18:53Z

I decided to 86 "my" old hair out of my life. Having short hair makes me feel self concious but wearing a skeen of somebody's old hair made me feel even more crappy about myself. I am on the way to recovery! (Emotional cancer scars)

Mr. Owl, how many licks does it take to get into the center of a tootsie pop?

School is doing okay. My internship at the 9:30 Club is going well but I can't help but feel like a doofus everytime I talk. I am SO not a "hipster" or "scene" or whatever is cool these days. I don't even think cool is a cool word anymore. Shoot, last time I was "with it" Nirvana was rising to the height of popularity and everybody wore Airwalks. Now they sell airwalks at payless and Kurt Cobain is dead. I AM SOOO OLD!!! (and uncool)

pete doherty is a fake

2006-02-20T06:29:39Z

Not only is this cold weather bumming me out I have been second guessing the intentions of my friends lately. Why do you want to be my friend? Do you believe in me? Do you have faith in me? Do you think I am a good person? Do you know who I am or do you think you know who I am? Maybe it is me. Maybe I don't know who I am anymore. Maybe I have changed. But for future reference, if I am your friend it is because I believe in you. I believe that you will do great things one day. If you were a stock, I would invest in you. I am waiting for you to teach me something. I am not going to waste my time with somebody I don't believe in (unless they pay me and in case you are wondering, my going rate is $50 an hour and $25 per every hour after. The price cycle restarts at the end of every business day. I accept paypal.)

I am currently listening to M.I.A., We are the Scientists, Of Montreal, OK Go, and The Artic Monkeys. If you have not checked them out yet, I suggest that you do so.

This is the picture I submitted to the Makeover show I may be apart of! (I was going for the sweet, girl next door who is in need of a makeover look)

Brainy Franey and I.

the moon is down

2006-02-02T03:43:06Z

I've set myself up for disaster by proclaiming 2006 the YEAR OF THE KIMBERLY. I even re-proclaimed it the LUNAR YEAR OF THE KIMBERLY because 2006 wasn't working out so well. It is unrealistic to expect everything to go well...With every good there is a bad.

e.g.:
Bad: I have an MRSA staph infection
Good: I am now entitled to a private hospital bedroom for the rest of my life!

Good: Jamming in my car to Parliament
Bad: Not paying attention and ramming my car into a traffic post

Good: Going vintage shopping in DC on the most perfect, sunny day
Bad: EVERYTHING IS CLOSED!

Good: Getting a pink strawberry buttercream cupcake from cakelove
Bad: It's dry.

Good: Finally getting a new phone in the mail
Bad: It's the wrong phone.

See what I mean? High. Low. Low. High. I guess that's life.

serendipity

2006-01-24T04:08:28Z

For those who truly know me, you know that I am absolutly obsessed with the missed connections section on craigslist. It is my one hope that one day my boundless energy and personality will captivate a stranger so much so that he seeks me out on an online classifed posting. In order to maximize my "missed connection" I have decided to start taking the metro to my internship. More missed connections have been made on the red line than any other line combined. I will also try to clean my clothes in a laundromat on a Friday night and "bump" into handsome strangers at the airport more often.

That is my goal for my last semester in college.

Parenting.

2006-01-11T22:48:45Z

Just so you guys know what I've been up to without my little ambiguous posts....My parents have been away in Vietnam/Thailand for the past three weeks so I've been playing mommy to the twins and my two sisters. AGHHHHHHHH!! I always told myself that I am never going to be the mother who raises her children with television but I'm not going to lie the boys are watching "The Brave Little Toaster" right now so I can a little break. It is hard work, but it is satisfying to watch over a family. The best part of my day is when the boys eat the healthy dinner I have prepared for them and say..."MMMMM!!! This is delicious! This is my favorite!" Every night. Hahaha. I love my brothers.
My new years resolution is to not be an idiot. I have been doing well with this so far. I have cut down on drinking... a lot. I have been eating healthy. I hope to start exercising again. (I'm not super woman!)
I've got an internship with the 9:30 Club so 2006 promises to be a year of good (FREE!!) music. I am most excited about Belle & Sebastian/The New Pornographers coming in March. And I am hoping..hoping..hoping that Rooney and Phantom Planet will be coming around soon as they are my two favorite bands.
and thats about it. I am boring. but i like it that way.